Mein Kampf

Phase 1 has stalled, sputtered and died.  I want to blame it on Thanksgiving, but thats just an excuse to mask the fact that my enthusiasm for getting healthy has faded, as it always does.  This in itself is not a bad thing, because you cannot maintain a beginner's enthusiasm forever.  Instead, it is an inevitable part of the process.  This is the point where things get tough and most people give up. The few that stick around do so because they learned to replace their enthusiasm with commitment.  Its easy to run when you are looking forward to it, but its tough to run when you are sick of it.  Tough, but not impossible.  As I have said, I have fallen out of love with getting healthy, and my lifestyle shows it.  I haven't run in a little over a week, I have been eating fast food quite a bit, I haven't fixed a healthy meal for myself in a few days, and just today I binged on some Mexican food. In addition to all of that, I also have been sleeping in pretty late.  I have pretty much ignored every habit that I laid out in my last post.

Here is the difference between this attempt at getting healthy and every other one that I have made: now that my initial enthusiasm has worn off and I have "fallen off the wagon" again, instead of judging myself as weak and pathetic and giving up totally, I will persevere.  I accept that I have not followed my plan perfectly, and in acknowledging this I vow to redouble my efforts and come back even stronger.  I haven't failed until I give up, and I will not give up on this.

Phase 1 is still in progress, and I am officially back on the wagon.